Hey Guys,
I just made this a few minutes ago and is going to try to keep this thing updated. Well my summer has been going great. I got back from NYLF Tuesday. It was awesome, I played with cadavers, participated in a debate, and made tons of unforgetable friends. I was in Blackwell! For anyone who doesnt know who that is, she was the first woman doctor.
Yeah so I am just going to jump around here at first, but I promise my thoughts will straiten out as time goes on. Well I have spent alot of this summer thinking, yes I know that is a scary idea. But anyways, Ive been thinking about life and how people react towards different people. Wether they act nervous or angry towards a person, or happy and gleeful. I think that the way people act towards the significant other they like and their best friend are so very different when really it shouldnt be. Like from personal example I am extremely shy around a guy I like but when I am with friends I am relaxed and dont try to be someone I am not. I am unaware that I do this until I lay in bed at night and think about the day and how Ive acted and how others acted. My question about life is; why do we do that? Everyone does to a certain extent. We put up masks to hide our feelings, so that we dont feel insecure about ourselves. When all those masks do is create awkwardness rather then releave it. The mask keeps people from seeing ones trueself and it keeps the people you are trying to build realationships with from understanding the emotions that you are trying to convey. I find that in myself I have a very bad habit of doing this because I do not always wish to get close to people. I dont know if it is because I am scared of losing them or if its because I dont want them to see the true me. Im not quite sure who that is anymore. I think I started to become more aware of who I am as a person while at NYLF. It brought into new light that everyone faces awkwardness and rejection. We just have to learn to face it.
Well thats all for now....I think I am going to try to update this at least once a week...
P.S. Thanks for reading
